Explosions of a Life

I just realized I’ve been absent for about 4 months! What happened during this period? Nothing exiting really or worth writing about! However, I discovered something; I am a cruel person that’s what my parents claim. Why? My grandparents had an accident lately and I didn’t even pick the phone to check on them + I don’t care about my own parents. Why? A lack of time but I do have them in mind. After my mother, almost in tears, hang up with me on the phone, I realized that my excuse is nonsense. A criticism process of my own person began… secluded, anti-social, highly depressive and pessimistic… It seems like all the bad stuff is buried inside of me! When did it all start? Cul-de-sac! I can’t investigate; maybe I am afraid of digging… maybe next time… Inchallah!