Explosions of a Life

couldn't stand the WF stuff. I was in rage. freezin Friday night went out to an ugly ol' pub (good girl.. been absent for 3whole months.. no drinkin). .. 6 shots of tequila I was out. took ma mobile and called him @3:45am. i don't exactly remember the conversation but it lasted for 25min was something like. me (love sick puppy sniffin): i luv uuu! (snif) why u left me? wanna see u! pliiiiiiiz aji pliiiiiiiiiz (snif). him: SAM its u? u drunk o wat? where the hell r u?. me: yaaa am drunk am somewhere its freezin n i luv uuu. him: i luv u 2... bla bla bla. bla bla bla. bla bla bla. that's all I remembered. he said i luv u 2!!! am sure 'bout that or was I daydreamin??? anyways he didn't call back that mornin. I found an sms @5:53am sayin: bonwi queen S. po d betiz stp. on Saturday I stayed home n I hated myself for callin. Sunday still nothin.. like I’ve never called.. maybe it's better this way.. forgotten again

WA333. hahaha. I had a WF. hahaha. she gave me a WF. hahaha. it's the end of the semester (2 weeks left) and she gave me WF. hahaha. am a good student (B student) and she gave me WF. hahaha. I have a nice cumulative gpa (above average) and she gave me WF. hahaha. I had 4 absences (normally 3 is the max) and she gave me WF. she said bring me a medical certificate for any of ur 4 absences but i don't have a certificate. the enrollment secretary said go write a letter to the professor. I wrote her the letter but she didn't wanna read it. classmates said go buy a fake certificate from outside. I tried but no chance. people said go get a certificate from the health center. I tried but no chance. the doctor said go talk to the dean of student affairs. I took an appointment but no chance. the dean said go write a letter to the sba dean's assistant. I wrote the letter but no chance (he'll be available till Wednesday). the secretary of the dean's assistant said go write a letter to the sba dean. I wrote the letter but no chance (he'll be available till Thursday). I just came back from her class cuz am still attendin YAH am not givin up YAH and u know what she gave me ma last grade I had an A- on the presentation and paper. I wanna kill myself DAAAAAAAAMN. f*** the system. hahaha. f*** the system. hahaha. f*** the system. hahaha. they drivin me nuts. am WF***ED. hahaha. WA333. (.. omg worst semester ever)

The TV is on, sound is down. I lay on the bed staring at the roof. Smoke cigarettes irritating my sore throat. Memories arise. Tears and laughs. I’m trapped in the past: a blessing or a curse. And I wonder. Can I erase and rewind. Or must I play forward. Life’s nothing but a song played on a secondhand tape recorder. Sad Vs happy, highs Vs lows, screams Vs silence… Starring you, till you loose your voice or the tape recorder’s dead.

Dark Alternative Party!!!! UH HUH!!!!

Maybe I'll go check it out.. miss the sound of shredding "black melodic" electro guitar 

But need to find kelk part ou crecher first

The Zawia of Sidi Lahssen Lyoussi (27 Km east from Sefrou)

Dear Santa,
I want a brand nu brain, a Brain V1.0, instead of ma useless Beta version Brain V0.0
I want a heart transplantation cuz I feel like dyin wid this one
I want a love sick puppy b.f for a wacko g.f
I want a fully loaded gun, no a bazooka will do, to blow ur head n ma head off if I don't get wat I want
Dontcha ever let me down n I ain't jokin Santa!
Peace n see u soon,